Zen training in a monastery, at best, can prepare us for the long haul of trying to awaken. Zen training has to be internalized as does, exactly, what we are seeking. We cannot be forever dependent on a teacher. The teacher’s mind cannot enter ours and change it. We are the ones who must change. If there is any ass-kicking, we must learn to kick our own ass. We must discipline ourselves. We have to practice awareness on our own. We have to study on our own.
Zen training is like boot-camp. It is only for the purpose of equipping us with the skills and attitude, necessary, to seek enlightenment on our own. It cannot give us enlightenment. The best training (and it is rare) tells us that within us is pure Mind and that you have to intuit it. Moreover, it will take a lot of commitment on your part.
What passes as Zen these days, in some circles, is watered down Zen. It is Zen for the middle-class. No one is really all that committed—yes, they are serious but not fully committed. Many people who join urban Zen centers are just ‘hanging out: enjoying the fellowship; following the center’s special programs. Such people are not like the Buddhist hermits in Edward Burger’s documentary film, Amongst White Clouds (2005). The world of these Buddhist hermits is best described by Bill Porter who has spent most of his adult life in China.
“Throughout Chinese history, there have always been people who preferred to spend their lives in the mountains, getting by on less, wearing old clothes, working the higher slopes, not talking much, writing even less – maybe a few poems, a recipe or two. Out of touch with the times but not with the seasons, they cultivated roots of the spirit, trading flatland dust for mountain mist. Distant and insignificant, they were the most respected men and women in the world’s oldest society” (The Road to Heaven: Encounters With Chinese Hermits).
Sadly, Western culture hasn’t advanced to the level of not only tolerating hermits such as those who live in small retreats dotting China’s Zhongnan Mountain range, but it hasn’t advanced to a world view which is spiritual. It is still mired in materialism.
These hermits have thoroughly internalized the required discipline. They have accepted their fate. They dare to look beyond, to where ordinary sensory consciousness cannot go; who are open to all clues; who are like spiritual detectives looking for the mysterious state of pure Mind which is, supposedly, right in front of them.
But don’t be disheartened! It is first necessary to believe, fully, that you can awaken. As I did, you will run into that unique person who gives you the clue you need. Then, you will set your spirit to do the impossible. You will not hesitate. Then one dark night you will awaken.