Of the fifth skandha, vijñâna, it is consciousness which is always conscious of something other than itself. Even if we go as far as believing that we can be conscious of being conscious, which to be accurate is self-consciousness, we have only reached a condition whereby our consciousness is conscious of being other than itself. In other words, we are conscious of abstract consciousness.
Clinging to skandha consciousness is a profound state of delusion which naturally enters into the spiritual life; which has to be overcome (in the Surangama Sutra it leads to ten false enlightenments). Gautama's awakening had nothing whatsoever to do with being conscious of being conscious, or the same, realizing abstract self-consciousness.
We also need to be reminded that skandha consciousness, the fifth aggregate, belongs to Mara the Evil One. It is consciousness which is caught up in the world of samsara. It has no means for pursuing and realizing pure Mind.
My Master told me;
"The evil one shows you exactly what your powerful subsconscious master wants you to see. That is, in accordance with your spirits available merit in the alaya receptacle. Thus the illusion becomes perfect and your ability to escape it, close to impossible. Buddha warned humanity explicitly about this wanting and the misfortune it brings to anyone in its grip. Here poor merit, offers poor realities with much suffering and rich merit, offers rich realities with little suffering. At least in the beginning. The end is always the same.
It´s a vicious, endless cycle of birth and death. The only way to win the game here, is to find a crack in the wall and penetrate it to the other side, where the crown of your true nature awaits you."
Posted by: minx | January 03, 2012 at 03:25 PM
This seems to be the most common mistake and Mara's greatest trick. It is almost impossible to defeat it. I, as of now, have not yet been able to. What use is to pretend? You can convince other people, but brutal honesty is better in the long run. And by "long run" we mean aeons upon aeons in Buddhism.
In all honesty, the "Mind" I found so far, is just "Mind" as an object, as a concept. No matter how intricate, how well-constructed this "Mind" I image is, how philosophically sophisticated - it's not it, because there is still an "I" thinking about a "Mind".
Hence, there's duality here, "being conscious of being conscious", as the Zennist says.
I thought I found what I was looking for, but I only found more delusion. I tried many things and many practices; I'm still studying the Sutras. Recently, I read Han Shan's Maxims - profound teachings there by a great Chán figure.
Perhaps it's when I'll really try everything and get tired of all the "methods" that the "methodless method" will show itself to me. Many stories go like that. The German poet, Hölderlin, wrote:
"But where danger is, grows the saving power also."
It can give us all hope.
Posted by: Sansiddhah | January 03, 2012 at 11:49 AM