Everyone, for the most part, treats their wish for kensho or enlightenment the same way: it's like wanting something that we think we really need—yeah, it will be good for me. Bound up with this is the daily fact, I am not getting it. Moreover, I haven't been getting what I need for a long time. This is a very subtle problem if not also a very subtle form of self-delusion: the deluded trying to escape from their delusion.
To maintain this delusion we have acquired a toolbox of clever, self-deluding tactics and strategies—not to get us out of our box of delusion—but to keep us trapped in it. When 9/11 came, to give one major example, we used our special toolbox to keep ourselves in the delusion of, them Muslims did this. Some said this was a perfect example of "cognitive dissonance" which is our mind's way of minimizing dissonance when the dissonance is something we can't handle. Turning to Zen, we fixate on zazen as the only means to awakening. We use our toolbox to keep us in this delusion. In many more examples, we are turning to our deluded self to find a way out of our delusions.
If I believe I want to see my true nature (kensho), I make sure I am the one who has to verify my true nature. But who is this person? It's the deluded guy! This is not going to work. And this is where 99% of the Zennists and Buddhists are stuck. They don't want to look further at the deluded guy with his toolbox. Our deluded guy is playing the part of the "chooser" as in, "Yeah, this temple looks really cool and that old Asian dude looks enlightened to me." The problem is this deluded guy who is holding the toolbox of clever rationalizations for continuing on an errant path. Truth be told, he's the problem and he has to be surpassed. But this is really strong medicine. Few can take it. Most Westerners I have come across don't want to give up the guy with the toolbox. They want him reformed.